Friday April 16th

Hello Mr. Fortune,
This is Savannah Flores. I wanted to let you know that Friday April 16th I will be participating in the National Day of Silence where hundreds of thousands of students nationwide take a vow of silence to bring attention to anti-LGBT name-calling, bullying and harassment in their schools. So, I know I'm not the most talkative person in the first place, but this Friday I hope it is okay with you that I will be completely silent throughout your class and throughout the day. This is really important to me because I just came out not too long ago. I can hopefully print out some information about it for the class and I'll give you the website at the end of this message which is full of more information about this.
Thank you for your time,
Savannah Flores

the main website: http://dayofsilence.org/index.cfm
frequently asked questions page: http://dayofsilence.org/content/getinformation_faq.html

sex on the first date.

i had weird dreams. one you got exploded. one you got danced upon sexily by me. one you weren't in. but i'm sure i thought of you a lot during it :D

i love my hunty. i love how spring break is teasing us. OH YEAH, IMA BE MAKIN' IT HOT AND SHIT AND MAKE YOU KIND OF TAN BUT IT'LL ALL GO AWAY AND YEAH, HANG OUT WITH ALL YOU FRIENDS BUT YOUR ASS IS GOING BACK TO SCHOOL SOON AND GETTING A REPORT CARD WHERE YOU PROBABLY HAVE AN E OR SOME OTHER SHIT GRADE IN ENGLISH. FUCK YOU. and then spring break causes elly to explode and attaches bungee cords to my eyelids and attaches the other end to two monster trucks and then continues to accelerate the opposite direction.

anyways.

what to say. what to say.
i've come out to the important people. not exactly sure how to do it to others. i'll figure it out.
i have pimples.
i need to wear my rubberbands if i want society's standard perfect teeth before college.
i have to poop.
i'm bored with my music. but i can't illegaly download because. blah. stuff.
i want my bike back.

elly just gaveme the okay. so i guess i need to depart.
i'll leave you with this. and by you.i mean no one in particular. maybe you hunter. or maybeyou pearl. or maybe you greasy stalker. or just maybe. i'm talking to YOUUUUUUU.

okay so here:

hi, i'm a lesbian.

bad sleep again.
my back hurt really bad. ughh..

i saw dr. carol. i love her.
i'm hungry.

gay.

thinking.

not a good thing.
i suck at talking to hunter. i just. blehhhhhhehehe. last night he texted me and i was just having dinner with my dad. and i already feel kind of weird bringing elly all the time. well not all the time. sometimes he asks if she wants to come. but last night i totally brought her without telling him. sometimes i feel like he wants to work on our relationship at dinner. and by bringing a third party it's like.. ruining that somehow. and then texting throughout just makes it more awkward. and then we saw this former skinhead talk and it would just be rude hahah. don't want to get kicked in the face with his steel toe boots.
i just feel like it's always the wrong time. like with patty.
i've been thinking about her a lot. i need to talk to her. we haven't talked in a really long time. she seems still friendly though. like she's not mad at me.
i just need to initiate things.

i have this problem. where when people text me. i answer it in my head and move in. never really replying. which causes a lot of people to be mad. mostly my parents. but. i do it in real life too. oh i'll do that later. i think i've done it in my head. and i haven't. poop! i just thought of something. cellopaloosa. i need to ask about that. see! fuck.

i've also been thinking about something else. i don't really know how to go about talking about that. so i'll wait.

berklee has also been crazy on my mind. i don't know what to say about that. i just think about day to day things. walking to class in the cold. with my cello. seeing people on the street waving. just stupid things.

i hate waking up early. i always do this to myself.

okay. i'm starting to get in a weird mood. hannah hasn't emailed me back. still. and. blah.


whatever.

worst sleep ever.

i don't know why. ijust kept waking up like every few hours. less than tha.t like every hour or two. i had a weird dream. it sucked. my comforter is all weird. i'm going to switch it out to my summer quilt thing. i like not wearing clothes. it's kind of necessary with my sunburn but it's nice. freedom. i've been good with my rubber bands and brushing. ortho should be proud. elly today. whenever she wakes up. from probably an awesome sleep haha. i wish she had a car. lately i've been paying for a lot. i mean it's my dad's money. but soon he's going to be paying for a lot of shit. and i hate to waste it on gas and stupid lunches.
speaking of money. pearl brought to my attention. i probably won't be getting a new cello in berklee. but. that's fine. i mean. i don't have a problem with tony. he's been pretty good to me. he looks kind of shitty. but i've learned to make a better than average sound with him. i can wait. i keep thinking. i just need to become really famous and rich so i can pay off college. haha. not for fame's sake or to have a stupid amount of money. but so i can pay off college. blehhh.
i want a tattoo when i turn eighteen. i have no idea what i'd get though. i feel like the first one has to be important. i don't know why. but. i do. after that i feel like i can get any shit. i always wanted a bass clef. but i can wait for that. i want something significant. in size and in importance. i don't know. ihave time to think.. too much time..
i like aaron. he's a good guy. straight up.
i don't like matt. but i want his skimboard.
i might go longboarding before i get elly. i miss it.

i'm tired. i want a good sleep.. ugh.

poiuytrewq

woke up. early. again. not as worth it haha. c'mon. sunrise elly? or school? yeah, no fanks.
my mom was being crabby driving me to gabby's house. it made me really anxious. i felt like she was mad at me. i was kind of freaking out. but. i got to gabby's and as we were leaving her mom kissed her on the head and kissed me on the head haha. it was nice. motherly lovin'. drive was fine.
theory was interesting. the teacher was workin' these:



yeah. and this girl was annoying and answered EVERY QUESTION and made a smart ass comment for everything trying to be cutesy. which i do sometimes. not for cutesyness. but. i don't know.I DO IT TOO BUT IT'S OKAY. IT'S ONLY ANNOYING TO GARY WEAVER. hahhaah. and probably pearl my freshman year. but. i can't take her. steph was tired and quiet. but it was fine. i was tired too. her lesson was fine. pearl's was good. dana looks like megyn price from rules of engagement kind of. she's nice to me. and likes me. it always feels good to be liked. i saw so many people i knew in the hallway. kelly was kind of bitchy. typical.. melanie was nice! i never really talked to her but she congratulated me on berklee. which was nice. i liked cello class! i like all the cellists. even eleanor was okay. haha. i mean. it was an hour. but yeah. matt is really cool. i really like him. i kind of thought about adding him on facebook. if he has one. everyone has one haha. but i think he would think that was creepy or something haha. so no. can't be creepy. must have everyone at vcu like me. hahah. gabby wanted to peace out. i wanted to stay but i mean she drove me so. what am i gonna do? lunch with pearl was good as always. i love just spending time with her. since it's so rare. well. not since it's so rare. but i love it more than usual since it's so rare? does that makes sense? sunburn sucks. i wanted to stay for the cello masterclasst hing. mehh.. ride home was okay. i was tired. i felt lightheaded all day. even more so when i got home. was going to hang iwth darrin but i felt like poop. so. no. possibly elly but. no. nononono. tomorrow will be good. i mean. every day will hah. today was just tiring. since monday too. ;ajslf.

thoughts on vcu? i love the people. it's comfortable. that's the best way to sum it up. it's a lot like GSA now. i thought of that way of explaining it on the car ride home. i know a lot of people. i am confident in my abilities. i'd just be taking lessons. similar orchestra and rep. just. away from home. kind of.
berklee is like GSA my freshman year. scary. new. intimidating. completely full of strangers. now teachers describe me as having the gsa spirit and embodying gsa or whatever. i want to like take over berklee haha. i need a new, bigger school to conquer. hahah. i don't want to feel like a senior girl. i want to feel like a scared freshman.
gabby wants comfort. which isn't bad. she knew even more people then i knew there. and she loved it. i want to network and make more connections.
i think the vcu campus is nice. the city is way cool. pearl is jesus. dana is like. i don't know. mary magdalene.

and that's all i have to say about that.