Shuma Recital.

Fuck.

Dreams.

This past week my dreams have been so vivid that when I wake up I still feel like I'm in them. I'm not sure if I did something or if I dreamt it.

I had a bunch of dreams tonight but the one right before I woke up was about Haleigh. We were in a grocery store but it was almost like a pool too. We were just walking around and I was like "Have you eaten today?" And she said no and I made her eat something because I was worried about her and then as we were leaving we were doing cartwheels and flips underwater and then I hugged her and she hugged back and I was like "Same time tomorrow?" And she nodded and then we left. And I woke up and I wanted to cry.

Marlee Matlin Lost.

BUMMER.

My face is pimplier. WHY. I've been pretty consistent with my face washing! Maybe it's because I'm a sweaty mother fucker. I just want my hair to be pretty again. I wouldn't even mind if my acne got worse haha.
I mopped and cleaned the floors. I don't know why. I want my mom to be happy. We went to pizza plus afterwards. It was perfect.
I hate having therapy once every two weeks. She said it's because she's going on vacation or some shit but.. I think she might be trying to see if I'm okay enough to see her not as often.
My parents divorce still isn't over. LOL.

My mom has a thing with not putting drinks on the floor in front of the couch because it leaves a sticky ring. We don't have a coffee table. So! I put it on a coaster thinking my drink would be okay and she was down with it but then I spilled it everywhere. By the time I finished cleaning it up and apologizing I was out of breath. I don't know if that means I overreact from mom disappointment or I'm really fucking out of shape.

Shuma's recital is tomorrow.. Gabby Potter is going to take me there.

Alaska let me hold her hand today without biting me and she closed her eyes. Progress, right?
I love that bitch.

I could eat buffalo chicken nugget/boneless wings for the rest of my life. Those and fries. So healthy...

I don't think I'd like L.A. Noire. I think I'd like a game like Dead Space though.. Maybe I'll play that.. I watched iJustine play all of Dead Space 2. I can just play the original.

You wear way too much makeup.

I've been watching a lot of news. I've been listening to more newsy radio too. I had to stop before because I'd get anxious. I think I can handle it now.
I like Samantha Tanner. I think she is real. Down to earth I guess. Now that I think about it more she's kind of like my mom. Yeah.. Weird.
I feel detached right now. There is very little I care about right now.

Sun May 22 9:46PM

Elly has a lot of stuff to do before she calls me tonight. So, I thought I'd distract myself on here. I'm going to start phasing myself out of tumblr. Probably..

I thought about my wedding tonight a lot. It was stupid. I'm embarrassed.

I hung out with Meagan today. It's stupid how nice she is. Haha. No. But, really..

Alaska and I were playing today. She was attacking my hand and I just gave in. I let her bite me and claw at me. She was really confused by it all.

I'm really really tired.. I've been tired for about an hour now. I don't know if I can stay up much longer.

Sorry this is a stupid list. I'm rusty on straight up blogging.

I think Pearl:Tumblr::I:Youtube. Except I don't really participate in youtube. I just watch. I'm a voyeur. Weird.

Hunter makes everything good.

Harold Camping:God::I:Hunter

BACK TO MY ROOTS.

lol h8ing tumblr moar & moar errydai.

pearl JUST finished joking people like this.

hey i like catcher too. but i just think it's hilarious that she jussssssssssssst said something.