Hey, Strong Bad! I need to be kicked in the face.

can i look like this? truly. not pretending. not getting in a bad mood later. not being condemned for not acting my age. whatever that means. how is a typical seventeen year old suppose to act? i think they would actually be less mature then how i act. at least the ones at tallwood. they are so much worse. i want to be this picture.
i slept through oceanography. still finishing my work before everyone. (allowing for more sleeping time) practiced. recorded myself. wrote in my college notebook of progress. went to theory. got in a bad mood. went to senior prep. started feeling better. mrs watters is the best. then orchestra was whatever. i still stare.
the bus was interesting. we all asked each other awkward questions. it's nice i'm so comfortable with them. darrin said i was like his best friend. it's always a nice thing to hear.
how do i have fun and be happy without being a little immature sometimes. i can do it. just a little. i need to find the balance. tomorrow i work the elections.. not excited. anymore. i just want to sleep. maybe caleb can come over and we can nap.
maybe i can read wuthering heights tomorrow! yeah.. killing two birds with one stone. i'm sure i'll be bored for most of the time. who votes from 5am-1pm? seriously..
i wish i had a sister. oh how i've wished for that all my life. but i still do. so alone here..

i need to calm down. i can do that.
"i can do it. i will do it nine times."
if you know that reference. i will marry you right now.