irony

asking a person who was just googling depression chat rooms for advice on what to say to someone who is suicidal.
the chat rooms sucked by the way. i felt ignored and anxious. it was hurting me more.
i'm glad you asked me though. I mean.. i've been on both sides of the situation more than once. So yeah, anytime you need help ask me. it's okay. I think facial scars are really.. interesting. like. i read about this girl who cut her face because she was really pretty and everyone like expected it from her andshit. one day she just picked up the scissors and went crazy on her face. i guess it's fucked up that i think that's brave. but i really do. i do it on my arms and hide it. you can't hide your face.
that's dumb.
caleb was there. during everything. during like. the beginning of my life falling apart with ryan and my parents and shit. he knew everything and was my friend during everything if not more. but i mean. when i meet others.. i have to explain my arms. no one will.. understand. god.. i just am not feeling good now.

this month is the month of cello. and college in general. i gotta get my shit together. december 1st colleges gotta recieve my cd and apps.

i'm glad you're talking to me andy. andrea is such a beautiful name. i mean elanor is too. your whole freakin' name is. but i love your middle name. andreaandreaandrea. andy.

that is all.

-peter pan