Tyson's Corner

GMU was average. That's the best I can explain.
Me and my dad went to the mall afterwards. I found out that I really hate malls. Everyone is all so.. horrible. Maybe it was just me but I felt like everyone was giving a judgemental look (paranoiiiiidddd). A look that said "Wow you're wearing that.. your hair.. your lack of makeup.. your weight..bleh" It made me want to like fix myself up. FOR THE MALL!? It's such bullshit. I mean i'm not going to say I never judge people but. I try not to give people straight up stank faces. Everyone is so messed up too. They're main goal is to buy overpriced shit to look good for all the assholes in the mall. Fuck malls man.
I went to this one store and saw this jacket that was 168$. I'm serious. I went to another store and saw basically the same jacket for around 40$. I scooped that shit up. I got this shirt that reminded me of Patty. And some books.
It reminds me of when I was younger and we had a lot more money. Like my dad was at his peak and my mom started her job and was doing really well. Then the economy pooped itself. My parents jobs are directly affected by that. A financial advisor and a MORTGAGE LOAN OFFICER. yeahhh.. now she's a receptionist for this salon she use to go to to get facials and waxings and stupid stuff. It's weird. It's just. I use to be like the stank girls. Looking down on people for 'not taking care of themselves' I'm trying to be a better person. Everyone is. I just hope i'm doing right.
I had that feeling of. I want to be home. I want to go to sleep in my bed and not talk to anyone and just figure out why people are like this. But I was in the largest shopping mall in the nation three and a half hours from home.
I've been pretty good about sucking it up and doing stuff lately. Friday I wanted to just stay at lakehouse forever and call in sick to work. I did have a headache hah. But I made a commitment and Jim needed me so I went. And I really really really don't want to apply to GMU but i'm going.
Maybe that's a bad thing. I shouldn't be like that. I should do what I want. But. I think there are exceptions to the rule.