I feel like I came to their house dying. I feel like I was given an extra push so I could go on a little longer. I did nothing completely amazing either. It was just being with them. Being with good people. It does wonders.
Such a positive environment haha. Dr. Warren would be proud.
I'm starting to keep to myself more. Which is what I wanted. I pretty much only tell Pearl, Michaela, Patty, and Dr. Carol the honest to god truth. It's kind of sad that these people don't live near me or is an adult who I can only talk to by appointment. Caleb was my person that I could tell everythingeverythingeverything to. I was always afraid to talk to him though for fear of judgement. So, maybe that's good we aren't together. That is not a good thing. But to me. He is still the closest to perfect I've ever had.
To be realistic though. I am seventeen. I will have others. But to also be a realistic teenage girl who just got her heart broken, it fucking hurts and I don't give a shit about the rational view.
All in all.. spending the night with Pearl was really good.
My dad is just an issue I don't know how to deal with and don't want to deal with. I know I need to talk to him but right now I just want to tackle other problems. More news about him later. I just. I can't even type about him. Just thinking about it makes me so anxious.
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