so glad those peter pan pictures resurfaced.

they seriously make me laugh EVERY SINGLE TIME. so. now when i visit hunter's blog (which is usually every .20385 seconds) i'll laugh. every time pearl does something on facebook. laugh.

tallwood's grad. uhh. tiring. MAYBE IT WAS LIKE ALL THE EMOTIONS OF SUCK COMING BACK TO ME AS I SAW EACH ASSHOLE CROSS THE STAGE.

or maybe because there were like five hundred of them and it took a long time.

elly had a secret blog for a while. there is a giant shift in her writing from the point of "this is a secret no one will read this" to "i'm going to let savannah read this eventually" kind of a bummer. but it was so nice she let me see it. she's so nice.

pimples are annoying.

party i was in a weird mood. but that's okay! i'm pretty sure hunter had a good time. parties are interesting. people are different. i'm different. really different.

i wish people didn't label me and hunter as obnoxious together. yeah, we can be. but we can also talk on a normal volume level about things not anus involved. i like talking to hunter. he thinks differently from me. i love that. like jeff. he thinks differently from me and hunter. and pearl is different from all of them. elly too. i mean, we agree on a lot of things but sometimes we come to that conclusion 20358 different ways. well i guess four different ways. i don't know what i'm saying.

i want to be more like jeff. not because jeff is jesus just like everyone else thinks. i don't know. jeff is. gah, when i think of jeff related to students. i think of his "favorites". like katie and gabby. fucking like. talk about him all the time. like a school girl crush. they say they don't have a crush on him and that was like freshman year. but they act like it. caleb and andrew need his approval to survive. i try not to be like that. maybe i really am like that. i just want to be more like him in the sense of. thinking things through more. and being kind to others. i just consider him as a friend. i want to be like all my friends. i think if i could pool certain characteristics of all my friends. i could be like the perfect human ahah. well my idea of the perfect human. anyways.

i'm going to start writing letters to jeff. and thank you cards to people who deserve it.

i want to cut my hair. it's annoying.

i want lessons again.

i feel really unattractive lately.