college thoughts.

yeah, a good chunk of why i want to go to vcu is pearl.
but. what if pearl leaves. i mean she's going to eventually. my senior year pearl won't be there. like this year. maybe. i can't rely on that. but i want to. what if she doesn't play cello anymore. what if i end up hating it. what if i think "what if i went to PSU"
a;sldkjf.
i mean i do like a lot of other things about vcu. but living with pearl and going through college shit with her near would not be a bad thing at all. and she gets it. and she can help. if things.. go bad again. and.d i ca nhelp her.

now i'm anxious. this is why i hate when people set up hypothetical college situations.
"SO WHAT IF YOU GET INTO ____ BUT NOT ______ WHERE WOULD YOU GO?"
elly tried doing it last night. i was like.. please. just. no. i don't want to do that. i don't know.



lately every blog entry has ended in a not good feeling. last night's was good. the only exception. like obama. in gov whenever we learn something usually obama is the exception hahah. all presidents are white, protestant, rich, old. all presidents used federal funds for their campaign. all presidents were not obama.
i don't know how i ended up there.

elly said a lot of nice things to me last night. she said writing a book about me would be easy. she said the things i say are amazing. and that i'm a character. and. i asked her how she would start it and end it. because i tried not too long ago. and that was way too hard for me to figure out.
she came up with it in a second.both things.
she likes me.
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