LOL. xanga and open diary quotes.

"so the deed is done. karl and savannah is officially over.
he was suprisingly REALLY okay with it on the phone. like. totally unphased by it. whatever. hes either a great faker or seriously doesnt care haha oh well. i dont really care if its awkward. if he hates me i dont care i still got mah other GSA friends. not like im totally alone without him.
like that irraplaceable song hahah
i butchered that word man.. how do you spell it?"

first gsa report card
"theory B+
aural skills A
music lit A
piano for non majors A-
computer composition B-
symphony orchestra A-
chamber orchestra A-
audition prep A
ap cello A"

"-katie and i got made fun of by stuckey y sam cause we have our own language and talk really fast."

"GSA is so fun. AND SO HOTT!! jesus. its roasting in there! hahaha
aural skills sucked. we are learning solfege which is like "do re mi fa so la ti do" and i suck at it. :( i hate singing. its embarrasing hahah
piano was okay. i actually had to learn somethign and work on it. but it only took like..half an hour hahaha which is a long time but like the other half i had nothing to do."

"kay so then chamber i had to borrow goose. who is my friends cello.it was fun to play a different cello. new expierence haha
i did pretty good. but people made fun of how i pluck cause i pluck like a guitar and thats apparently
"weird""
"me katie, and julie created a licking club. because we are weird. hahaha cause once i asked if katie has ever licked a bus before and she did. hahaha. and julie and i figure that pearls cello tasteslike bitter coffee beans. hahaha. im the president of the club"


" dont want to get married Saturday, October 21, 2006



im scared.
me and my mom argued this morning.
i was saying how the past couple holidays have sucked cause theyve been fighting and she was like weve been having problems only for the past two years sorry that your mind doesnt rememeber before 2005
and im like only two years?! thats a long time! and she was like im sorry you really hurt my feelings.
so i felt bad
and she was like
when i was little i just wanted my parents to get a divorce so the fighting would stop do you feel like that?
and i was like. no and she was like be honest with me! im honest with you!
and so i was like yes! okay? i did before but its getting better so i dont know. and she was like well i just dont want you to suffer because youd have to go back and forth and i dont want you to choose between us and im like it would be better then how it is now. and she was like i want you to have a better life. when you married i want you to be happier then i was and have a better life then i did. and im like. so if your not happy why are you married?
we started crying.
the shitty part was that we were listening to happy christmas music in the background and we were crying."


"it was alright.
people had boy problems.
and katie asked if i had lost it yet.
not so much.
she was like
HAVE YOU LOST YOUR STYROFOAM CUP YET!? hahaah
and then we continued to joke haha and i dont know. nothing special today.
tomorows a recital! i mean im not gonna play but other people are and we get to miss audition prep! yay! so yeah. im excited. i love recitals. i wanna play in one. i kinda need a solo peice though.
i really want to play this one peice called prelude suite number one in g major by bach
check it out there.

its gorgeous i really love it."

"haha i got eighth chair out of twelve at GSA theres four freshman including me.
katie got fourth
mikey seventh
me eighth
ian twevlth"

"im going to juilliard and no one can stop me hoez.

so thurr"

"i really dont wanna type anymore? so. i hate my cello teacher." (mama frifri)

"i got there and my buddy ian was leaving nad im like..he looks fine. it must be cool. and my teacher wa ilke..creepy quiet you know? and so it was scary. and she made me play scales i sucked at and she was writing down all this stuff like stuff i needed to buy/work on and i showed it to my friend marshall and hes like YOU CANT DO THE C SCALE?! and im like shut up!! (the c scale is the easiest its no sharps or flats)
IN BETWEEN: i called monica all freakin out from my lesson and bout to cry "

"(I HAD PIANO CLASS YESTERDAY AND I ALMOST CRIED BECAUSE HE MADE ME PLAY BY MYSELF TEN TIMES AND MADE ME KEEP PLAYING AND READING THE NOTES OUT LOUD. IT WAS SO EMBARRASING I WAS ABOUT TO CRY)
so we got there and i was all bouncy and it went to music theory one. and i learned that cellos have to play and learn all the notes in all the clefs. which sucks asss. so i got nervous cause im not good at it. i think i got it though..it just takes me awhile.
then i went to audition prep. jesus..the upperclassmen hate us and give us such a hard time. then one did the etude (prepared peice for audition) and it was gorgeous. so powerful and they were criticizing her like she wasnt that good and i was like if she wasnt good i must be shit. and we did scales and i was AWEFUL i dont even know all my scales. im so nervous. i dont think im going to audition for senior regionals itll be pointlessi wont get in. i really wann be in all state orchestra. maybe senior year when i actually learn my scales and different clefs. so im freaking out. everyone was so scary was so scared.
then we had orchestra. ninetyfour kids. including brass section. wind section. percussion. and strings. full orchestra. we didnt have enough chairs and stands and it was SO crowded. and the music turned out to go WAAAAY faster then i thought it did and i was SOOO bad it was embarrasing i wanted to cry cause ill never learn how to be that fast or learn fingerings for those notes. and i was always in someones way with my huge case. and they always told me to shut up.
so then i pretty much almost cried there. but i couldnt cause it was school and i was stuck."



HAH.