yesterday:

i got a four on my mock ap exam
i played 'player' in the play we read in class
i ate a firehouse sub before tallwood
my mom gave me the car
my mom gave me a benedryl
i drove in a circle
i picked up elly late
i played well in quintet
da camera was annoying as shit
lit i annoyed dorsey and i felt like shit
i was an asshole to eric
elly and i had dinner
mackenzie and eric annoyed me
i hung out with elly in the back of my mom's car
we walked to the concert
i realized no one signed us up and we weren't playing
i cried
i missed rehearsal for godspell for no reason
lucas asked me personal questions
me and elly watched the rest of the concert
we walked back
caleb texted me about me fucking danielle over basically which is none of his fucking business and he obviously already heard the fucking story and just wanted me to feel like shit all over again. so point taken caleb! i'm a fucking asshole just like everyone else. no wait. i'm a special stupid kind that comes to concerts dressed in black for no reason and missing important shit for no reason even when i already missed two other god damn rehearsals. thanks caleb. thanks for pointing that one out.
i felt like i felt six months ago
i drove her home
she got gas
i went to the bathroom
i walked her to her house
kissed her
drove home
called her
went to sleep
had i dream i lived with her family and her
woke up.

i'm really in a shit mood right now. of course it's a fucking bday. my mom didn't wak e me up even though it's not her job. i just ASSUMED. she would. i'm fucking tired. i thought i got my period but i didn't. i just ASSUMED.
i thought i was an okay person. i just assumed.
i'm so frustrated wit myseld.
so fucking frustrated.