i'm in asuch a shitty mood.

i want to go outside. my mom won't let me skate around. i need my bike fixed. maybe hunter had the right idea. i should ride my bike more. i've lost six pounds. i don't know how. but i should probably turn the rest into muscle or something. biking would be.. nice. or skating. anything. i should probably be outside more.

say anything is nice. it's kind of making the sad turn into angry. i'm not sure if that's better or worse.

i understand why seniors get all the benefits and shit now. because. i really couldn't do a jury. or anything. i need all the breaks i can get. and i mean. we had to do college apps and scholarship shit and stuff. determining our futures in a few months. so.. i think we deserve it.

alaska knows when i'm not happy. she knows. i know she knows.

i wish i was better at guitar.

fuck amanda. she's just. god. a bitch.

i'm in bad mood. i'm just. i'll get over this.

i just lay in bed. wanting to go to sleep. and then i lay there and think myself into an anxious state and have to get out because i can't lay there still and i have nothing to do or i feel like i've already wasted time laying there. i just create stupid situations.