the past few days have been weird.

PROS:

masterclass with alisa weilerstein. i kicked kind of ass. more ass than some.

she complimented my dress. and really wanted it.

she touched my lower back hahaha.

andrew said i did a good job.

dionne's proud of me. patty's proud of me.

i didn't cry in front of leon.

i got a B on my theory final.

i got a free drink from mrs. watters.

she told me: that she loved me, i'm a free spirit, she agrees leon singles me out, she doesn't like working for leon either, she agrees with me that he treats students like shit, i could never disappoint her, i'm a strong woman, i've been stronger this year than last year, people look up to me, i'm passionate, going to have a great career, call her even if it's not good news, my new haircut gives my hair so much body, she thinks that i've grown so much, i'm doing well this year.

the biggest thing was that she loved me. she said it. i love you savannah. i'm not sure if dionne has ever told me that.

CONS.

leon flipped shit that i didn't wear shoes.

mrs. watters had to reprimand me. and i cried really fucking hard all the way as we walked out of diehn, in front of katie and connor and someone else, and all the way back to lakehouse since we parked there. and while i talked to mrs. watters for half an hour.

elly wasn't there. i mean i wasn't bothered by it before. but after the fact. i really wish she was there. not so much as to comfort me, but to see me during the master class.

i love mrs. watters. and that school. lately it's been like. something really good will be happening. and then something will be like BOOM NO. NO HAPPINESS. STOP. I'M GOING TO THROW THIS ON YOUR PLATE. but yesterday was a good day. it was a good elly night too.

i ate chocolate frozen yogurt and chili cheese fries. mmmm.