things that sucked.

• my laptop cord is not charging. i'm holding it in with one hand and typing with the other
• i got denied an audition at manhattan school of music. fucking two conservatories now. out of the three
• da camera i forgot my music and katie freaked out at me.
• i suck at da camera music
• i suck at orchestra
• i suck at setting up the section
• i suck at being a good girlfriend. friend what ever the fuck.
• i suck at being a good person.
• being a fucking good daughter.
• i hate having therapy before gsa it fucks up my whole day.
• i hate being stared at when i cry and getting all this stupid advice from a stupid woman with a lisp who thinks she fucking knows me like the back of her hand from two sessions.
• i hate making my dad cry
• i hate this stupid anger i'm feeling right now.
• why am i mad
• whyajkl'dslgf
• i didn't expect to get into those schools. it just sucks not being wanted.
• i hate getting use to that. fuck everything
• fuck everyone fuck me.
• i try so. fucking. hard.