breathe.

i feel kind of better. i ate. me and my mom are watching 'the breakfast club' now. i texted everyone. alaska is like my nana from peter pan. i watched 'so you think you can dance'. that's the best fucking show.

i tried looking for the dance where legacy is that girl's fear and is emboding that. jeez. that just. was perfect. that explains how i feel. god.. except i haven't conquered it. i'm just some how getting by.

everything is so hard. guys, like. i wouldn't wish this upon anyone. it's the fucking worst.

alaska is one of my favorite people.

i can do this. i can be happy and successful and awesome. i can do this.

i think. i think. i just need help. i just need to accept help. i can do this. i don't know. i can do it.