run me over.

everyone is fake. i'm fake. everyone is a hypocrite. i'm a hypocrite.
i'm so.. dissapointed. and sad for the future.

drinking is just. not a good thing man. yeah, i understand it's a great way to get away from reality. it's kind of a break. it's fun to not be here completely. especially with your best friend on halloween and shit like that. i don't know. what i think. i just. feel weird about the whole thing. like almost.. dissapointed? ughhh.

i want to hang out with you today. i want to fix everything. i want to take care of you. i want to be your best friend.

i guess that's why it hurts that you say things won't be like how they use to be. because i don't want to be that ex that you're still friends with. i want to be your best friend and i want you to be mine.

but "wants" don't matter.

i actually said rabbit rabbit today.

i didn't have bad dreams about paranormal activity.

parties suck.

i suck.

fuck.

caleb. he's nice to me at parties now. maybe because i'm so removed and not talkative as usual. i really like gabby. i really do. she's such a good person.

okay i've been sitting at this laptop for too long. i've completely ran out of things to say. my mind is taking over. i keep thinking about everything. i'm in such a weird place right now.