daisy

I went over to Eric's house last night to listen to this on vinyl. It was perfect. I just laid on his floor with my eyes closed. Then he got up and turned the music down and said,
"I don't want to sound creepy, but i'm really glad we're friends"
That's something I would say haha. It was refreshing to hear someone else but emotional and BLAHILOVETAHTWE'REFRENZ. I love Eric. He's a nice boy. Sometimes he annoys me. But he's always felt like a little brother to me.

I was laying in bed thinking.. this is my last year of high school. This is the last year of this high school for both parties. I could make.. a really big mistake. even if i don't choose. because i'll probably never see these people again after this year. or not for a really long time. maybe i'm being overdramatic. I'm just scaring myself. I'm really scared. I just want to listen to Daisy in my bed all day. Is that too much to ask?
Lately, that feeling is kind of coming back. Not the heart feeling. The random crying feeling. Like I could cry for days if i just let it out. But I have this feeling all the time now.. Just have to suck it in. Just breathe..

fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck.