day fiftyPOOP.

so back to that idea. ENGLISH AND THEORY ARE THE SAME. even more so! i learned some stuff today in english and i was like. amazed.
everyone complains about "meh, i just want to read the book/poem. why do i have to analyze it to death? did they really think about all this stuff when they wrote it?"
same with music theory.
but it helps! at least i think so. for music. when you are playing something and you're playing the third of the chord you play it lower because then it'll lock in. but if you didn't know theory. you wouldn't know it was the third. or to emphazise the leading tone. or how to improv.
then english you don't know how to read a poem if you don't know the meter or the rhyme scheme. or what it's about! would you read it in a happy tone if it's about like death or something!?
i just. wish people would appreciate it more. the symbolism. it's all connected. the arts. written word. music. visual arts. all that shit. it's all connected.

today, we're learning about rhythm and meter in english. and we were defining terms. and one of them was anacrusis. and i was like well, shit. i know that!
so i said "well, i don't know how this applies to english. but in music, it's a fancy word for a pickup like -sings gigue from the first suite- it's the note before the piece starts or the real theme or whatever."
"i don't get it"
"uh, okay!"

i tried. but yeah!

i was about to like.. say something to these girls who talk all class and sit next to me. but. i'm a chicken. sooo. i just sat quietly.
government i got 100 on a quiz i didn't study for.
i practiced the ravel. had fun in quintet. da camera i got annoyed by the same person as yesterday. ugh. i guess it's just that time of the month that's bringin' me down. but. she really brings the bitch out. correcting my spelling. when she fucking can't spell. anything right. fuck that.
hahahah. it's not a big deal.

i'm just tired. all the time. 24/7 tired.

i want a nice body.