day forty seven.

um. i feel better. cello is goin' down the toilet. and i have no desire to resurect it.
i want to shave my head. i think i'll be. less scared and braver. because. ihave to be brave just to get it done. I'LL BE SHAVING OFF ALL MY PROBLEMS.
not.
K.
i just feel like i hide behind my hair. shamana.
pearlyyy. i will accept nothing from my parents excpet ACOURSESAVUCANSPENDWEEKENDWITP.

YEAH I HAVE PIMPLES ELLY. ahahaha. weaaak.
dude, she is the fucking bomb.

i feel fat.

her valentines day present was amazing. amazinger than ihtought. gahhhh.

i'm scared of. losing all my friends. because. that comes easy to me. and i'm neglecty.
GAH. i'm aware of it. but i do nothing. i'm aware of my cello skills declining, and friends distancing kind ofish. but. i do nothing.
i suck.
end.

whoa. i was kind of in a good mood starting this.
mehhh.