day fort three.

a lot of people (not really. twoish okay?) have said that they feel disconnected from me or like they're losing me as a friend.

BAD.

i haven't noticed it. i've just. had a lot of shit to deal with. and right now. jesus. do not expect awesome friendship right now.

fuuuuuuck.

so.

i just don't want to follow my pattern. i'm not worried. but. maybe that's bad because. i usually don't notice until they're gone.

others are trying to get back. and i can tell. or trying to start something new. but. it's just. sadly. the last priority for me. still. ughhhh. once college is over. i have my health under control. my parents are divorced. school is back to being way easy. i can focus on my social life.

but uh.

sorry not now.

even now. it looks like i might not have a social life with one of my favorite people. sooooo. fuck me.

fuckity fuck.

um. yeah that's it.