day forty nine.

okay. continued.

first hour. i had my lesson. we talked a lot as usual. i laughed things off to get through the crying urges (like the suburban teen heroin addicts and crack heads on the tyra show!) frifri said something nice though. she was like what do you want to do? i can ask you that because i know you're a practicer i don't have to be like OKAY LET ME HEAR THIS ETUDE and you have lessons with dionne so what would you like to show me today?
GAH. i felt kind of bad. because practicing has not been good. and i haven't had a lesson with dionne since.. A LOOOOONG TIME AGO. like.. months?
poop.
da camera. was kind of annoying. as usual. i can't see gabby when we stand up. and i feel disconnected from katie kind of. which is stupid. more connnected and disconnected in ways. i just don't like it.
eurythmics was cool. i like elly. i like clapping compliments. or complements. or complashdgfments.
bus ride home. kind of funny. i just get REALLY tired at the end of the day now. well. lately. when i got home i tried studying and stuff. but by 7ish 8ish. i was ready for bed. sooo. i think i'm not completely better.
elly called.. i was so excited to talk to her for the ten minutes her phone allows. butttt. i was tired beyond belief by ten or whenever she called. so i couldn't talk.. LAMEEEEEEEE. i'm sorry elz.
i'm looking forward to all state. not auditioning. sleeping :D